• Zebras abundant life

Abundant Life-Only in Heaven?

2021-03-01T20:35:31+00:00Devotionals, Just Me|

During dinner with my beautiful African American friend the other day (outside with social distancing), she lamented that the world is just getting worse. Why can’t we get a glimpse of the abundant life that God has promised us?

Something popped out of my mouth that I had never thought of before. It surprised even me.

What if that abundant life He promises is not meant to be here on earth? What if it is awaiting us in heaven?

Let’s consider. We are here on earth (God willing) for 80-100 years. But we are in heaven for eternity. I’m thinking that when we’ve been in heaven for a couple of thousand years, life here on earth will seem like a VERY brief interlude. Somewhere we were placed for an extremely short amount of time in order to fulfill whatever it is God asked us to do there.

Dick Bonn familyLife is Temporary. Eternal Life is Abundant.

In no way will our time here on earth be the majority of our lives.

I am missing my brother in heaven today as the Fourth was a day that we gathered at the beach. We usually watch the parade, help the kids collect the tossed candy, help kids trade their candy and eat together at mom and dads. But I neglected to prepare for today being difficult-missed that somehow.

I take comfort in the fact that I know he is experiencing true abundant life with our Father. And maybe-just maybe-he has a window from heaven today to wave “hello” to the rest of us.

The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy. I have come that they may have life, and have it to the full. -John 10:10, NIV

The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy. I came that they may have life and have it abundantly. -John 10:10, ESV

Rick Bonn Obituary

  • Sin plus prayer

Does My Sin Affect My Prayers For Others?

2021-03-01T20:43:33+00:00Devotionals, Just Me|

Proverbs 15:29 The LORD is far from the wicked, but he hears the prayer of the righteous.

It’s not always easy to write insights from the Lord. And for me, nasty pride can certainly get in the way. Often I learn my lessons through failure and writing about them to others. Of course, that means that I have to admit to them.

I suspect you understand exactly what I mean.

God’s given me hints throughout life that he hears my prayers and blesses me more when I am following fully what He wants of me. This makes perfect sense. But what I didn’t realize until a few weeks ago is that my prayers for others might also be affected when I am not fully being obedient.

When God Keeps Hinting

Recently, I finally gave in on something that God had asked me to do. I mean, not only did He ask, He sent hint after hint after hint that this is what He wanted to do. Ongoing. For several months. And I fought it with all that I have. Have you guessed that I am stubborn? Sigh. I should have known that I wouldn’t have full peace until I was obedient.

It did not completely surprise me that God started answering more of my prayers for myself when I finally gave in.

What surprised me is that He started answering my prayers for other people. For instance, I was helping a gal who was in a custody suit for her child after a very abusive marriage. Her former husband was being manipulative and abusive. The courts believed him. Between him and his attorney, they had not only convinced the courts that she was crazy, but they had taken her child away a year ago. She’d been unable to see or talk to her child since. In spite of me helping her try to get representation and praying fervently with her week after week after week, everything continued to go downhill. Until last week. One of our prayers was finally answered-just as she was ready to give up. She now has hope.

Answered Prayers

At a weekly class that I hold, three other women came forward and said that God had answered our prayers from the week before. And that was just the beginning. There became so many “answers to my prayers” that every time I turned around, there was a new one. And in addition, an area of my life that had not shown progress for years suddenly made a turn for the better within days.

Deuteronomy 28:1-2 says “Now it shall be, if you diligently obey the Lord your God, being careful to do all His commandments which I command you today, the Lord your God will set you high above all the nations of the earth. All these blessings will come upon you and overtake you if you obey the Lord your God:…” I will let you read the rest of the verse as there are some interesting things that meant a lot in that day (blessings of crops, etc) but would likely be a bit different these days.

Lion and the lamb

Now are these answers to prayer due to ME? Absolutely not. Nothing to do with me. Only the mighty power of our Lord God who wanted to show me that He truly does bless those who fully obey Him.

I Feel Guilty

I struggle with some guilt now, of course. Would more of my prayers for others have been answered if I had been obedient earlier? Several times in His word, God specifically mentions blessings for future descendants due to acts of obedience. Have I been the block in some of my descendants fully accepting the love of God for them?

I experienced the other side a few days ago. I had been having pain in an area and a specific ultrasound showed nothing. A new ultrasound with different parameters was ordered for next week. But on Saturday after I had prayed for the ladies in my morning Zoom group, one of them requested to pray for me. I felt comfortable so shared some of what has been going on. She prayed for me and can you guess what happened next? My pain disappeared. It’s been gone now for two days.

The Lord is near to all who call on him, to all who call on him in truth.
Psalm 145:18

Thank you, Lord.

  • peas in a row

Just Read The Instructions

2021-03-01T20:47:57+00:00Devotionals, Homespun|

Having planted sugar snap peas for many, many years, I am an expert. Or so I thought.

Why read the instructions? I don’t need them. I’ve planted them each year, sometimes twice a year, for over 30 years! I plant them a couple of inches apart and each year carefully take the time to construct a support system for each row usually consisting of garden poles and string. I pound the posts into the ground with a hammer to ensure steadiness, as peas need a ton of support. I’ve worked with thick string and thin string. For two years now, I’ve been trying to get rid of my roll of thin string so have doubled it for strength purposes. I can’t wait to buy thick string.

What on earth got into me when this year, I read the BACK of the package?! I have no idea. Or maybe my husband read it and relayed it to me. Possible.

What Does The Package Say?

What did it say? “Plant two rows about six inches apart and construct ONE supporting structure between the two for both rows to use.” (Or something of the like)

HUH?

I’ve found myself doing this in my spiritual walk, as well. Having been a believer since the age of 4, have I not “read it all”, “done it all”, “practiced it all”? There is nothing in the Word that I haven’t read!

Some say that BIBLE should stand for “Basic Instructions Before Leaving Earth”. It is our guide and manual. God’s Word was not just applicable a few thousand years ago. He made it to last and it is as befitting to our issues today as it always was. There is not one problem we face that is not addressed in His book. In addition, there is power within the words in the Bible. Speaking the name of Jesus aloud chases Satan out. Memorizing scripture means that when we need it the most, certain verses will echo in our heads. The voice of our Lord.

I don’t know about you, but I am certainly reading the scriptures more during this time of world chaos-a habit I will strive to keep up even after the world seems safer.

How can a young man/woman keep their way pure? By guarding it according to your word. . . . I have stored up your word in my heart, that I might not sin against you. Psalm 119:9, 11

All Scripture is God-breathed and is useful for teaching, rebuking, correcting and training in righteousness, so that the servant of God may be thoroughly equipped for every good work. Timothy 3:16-17

Question I’m Pondering This Week: Is there written scripture in heaven?

  • Homeless Shelter

Getting Outta Me

2021-03-01T20:51:13+00:00Current Events, Trials|

Although I watch the homeless epidemic from afar, I have been the first (sadly) to walk a wide berth around someone sitting on the sidewalk and look the other way when approaching an intersection with a panhandler. This is not helped by the drug epidemic here (and all over) as some act strange or scary when I pass them on the streets.

I’ve even been a bit judgemental. Have seen panhandlers step away from their “post” and pull out a cell phone. I’ve seen those actively begging who have cell phones. And wondered “What the heck? Are they not really homeless? They have money for a phone!” (Yes, I know that there are panhandlers working the system and ones who are scammers.) I’ve heard others talk of this cell phone issue and for anyone who has these same questions, I encourage you to read this post. It explains a lot.

cross with bandaidsVolunteering at a Homeless Shelter

As nervous as I was, hubs and I volunteered two nights ago at a homeless shelter. My friend Mark Hovarth from Invisible People would be proud of me, I suspect. I usually do step into some type of ministry once settled at a church. Commonly this was AWANA, VBS, Children’s Church or Nursery-often helped along by the fact that I had children. I entered safe ministries, of course. I had to feel safe. Focusing on serving others not only blessed them but had the unexpected benefit of taking much of my focus off of ME.

My children are grown now (although two still hang at home) and as much as I still love interacting with kiddos, I felt nudged a different direction this time. (Disclaimer- this may or may not been initially somewhat influenced by book research).

My nerves ahead of time didn’t make me proud. Hubs announcing “well I’m going to go circulate” when we got there made me more nervous. HA! But I knew these were just people. I already work with some at-risk populations at ARMS and I’ve worked with juvenile delinquents in the past (I would not call them that these days, by the way). Certainly, I could do this too.

Mingling With The Homeless

So off I went to a table of folks waiting for the dinner call. There were some females there, but mostly men. We talked, I looked them in the eye and I asked for their stories. I left the table blown away. One was homeless due to a layoff and then a severe foot break requiring multiple surgeries. Another, with schizophrenia, was turned down by social security disability and is in the process of appealing. But she had nowhere to stay for the past five months in the meantime.

Throughout the evening, several gentlemen came to introduce themselves. They were all appropriate and all kind. “You must be new”, I heard. And I asked them their story. At one point a man asked me politely for a pen. There was a guy at his table who had work he could do, and he needed to write down the info. Another young man is clean now but had a criminal past and when his apartment situation fell apart due to his record, he had nowhere to go. During the days, he works for the temporary labor agencies as much as possible, but there is not enough income to secure housing quite yet.

She Learned to Trust Me

I could hardly understand the garbled speech of one older gal. But she had some very specific needs and I helped her throughout the evening. There was an event that terrified her. I quickly saw, understood and sympathized. Living on the street would be terrifying. I would be jumping at every strange thing, as well. She ran. I went and got her, and we tried again, this time with my help. As I walked through it with her, it showed her that she could be victorious. She learned to trust just a little bit that night. Later when I was almost ready to go she was chatting again and I was shocked to realize that I pretty much understood everything that she was saying.

Today at church, our pastor spoke on specifically greeting and showing Jesus’ love to people “not like us” in his message. He has spent time in Kenya and Rwanda and mentioned how comforting it is when he, as the obvious minority in the group, is specifically sought out by them to be welcomed. Because of this, he now makes it a point to find and greet people who are different from he in most situations. He showed us stats about the Hillsboro area. Although over slightly 50% of Hillsboro are white/caucasian (as of 2017), we don’t see those numbers reflected in our church numbers. Attendees are mostly white/caucasian.

Ministries to Draw The Under-Served

This explains why Sonrise has intentionally made very specific programming and ministries to draw minorities, people born outside of the USA, people who have been in prison and multi-cultural individuals. It is a great thing.

I shall make an intentional practice now of greeting and loving on people who are different than me, no matter how nervous I might initially feel. I’m pleased to say that we got a headstart on this two days ago at the SOS shelter. We will return. With a change in my focus, I am getting outside my head, issues, challenges and pain.

I am getting outta me.

  • Rick Bonn Final Resting Place

Remembering Rick Bonn

2021-03-01T20:56:01+00:00Just Me|

He was my brother. He was 52. And he went to heaven on March 19th of this year. Way too young. This is more than difficult. Here are my words to him:

Dear Rick,

I know my tribute has been a bit long in coming. But I have been trying to wake up from this bad dream that started over two weeks ago with you becoming seriously sick.

I guess today is the day to pounce on it since I wrote your obit as well. UGH. LOL. Never a job I wanted to have but happy to help your family survive this. And not only that-but to eventually thrive. Because they will.

The Migrant Pea Worker

Do you remember this framed picture that you bought me several years ago? I was a single mom at the time. And although I looked at her and later told you, “she’s old looking” (LOL to that now that I DO have wrinkles and grey hair), you laughed. “That doesn’t say ‘old’ to me.” You said, “That is a woman of tremendous courage and strength. And she reminds me of you.” I quickly shut up. Because a compliment from my brother was…WOW!

Ever since that time, she has sat on my bedroom dresser in each one of our homes. She is my reminder that you thought of me as strong and courageous, and it is a nudge to continue to work on living up to that. I will do this, brother. For you, and the sake of my family and also for the sake of your family still here with us.

migrant pea worker from Rick Bonn

I think I mentioned this, but in case I forgot, I’m confessing now. There was a time in jr high when I truly was tired of hearing all about you. For many years, I attempted to live up to what you accomplished and fell drastically short. Great grades came easy for you, while I struggled for every “A” or “B”. Athleticism, popularity and friends were also a big part of your life. Yes, there was quite a bit of time that when I heard “are you related to Rick?” (because I heard it a lot), and I denied it completely.

Other students probably laughed at me.

You were not only stellar at the debate team, you excelled in arguments with me and that was the worst of all. But I will never forget your encouragement when I tried out for Jazz Choir/Highlighters, (South Kitsap High School). I wasn’t even going to look at the posted acceptance list. But you and our friend Christian Weber basically dragged me down the hallway and read the list as I hid my face. In a short time, you were both whooping and hollering and I was red-faced but pleased as could be. Thank you for supporting me and for knowing that I could do it.

Thank you, for being my example of how to love Christ, and to make Him first in my life. You seldom stepped off the path that I loved to wander from and I suspect you are now being rewarded for that. Well done, my brother. I will read “Blue Like Jazz” again, in memory of you.

A pain-in-the-butt sister

I can only imagine that at times I was a pain-in-the-butt sister. Check that-I KNOW I was. I know this because you also had your share of being a pain. But I am grateful that God chose me to be in your family and I’m grateful for the parts of you that have been left behind in your children. I will hold them close and treasure them. Remind them of memories and tell them stories. We will not let your legacy die. People all over the world are telling us how you greatly impacted their lives. You didn’t realize this so I pray that God has shown that to you now. You made a forever impact and were loved by us all.

I am proud to be your one and only sister. And in truth, I always have been.

Miss you and love you.
Jules

Letter from Rick Bonn

 

 

Rick Bonn Obituary

2021-03-01T21:00:52+00:00Just Me|

Rick Bonn (Richard Wayne Bonn), age 52 of Newbury Park, CA graduated to heaven on March 19, 2020. He leaves behind his wife of 25 years, Shanda Gibson Bonn, and children Fiona, Jacob and Joseph Bonn. He also leaves parents, Richard L. and Dolores Bonn, one sister, Julie Bonn Blank and family, and one brother, Jason Bonn and family. Although we know heaven has gained a star and that it was the most joyful day of Rick’s life, many of us here will miss him deeply.

Rick Bonn loved movies

Rick Bonn on beachRick had a passion for movies and bringing the love of Jesus to others through movies, both secular and spiritual. He worked in creative development in Hollywood for over 20 years. He worked with Wind Dancer Films, Nickelodeon, Providence Entertainment, Keystone Films, PorchLight Entertainment, and most recently, Pure Flix Entertainment, where he developed “The Case for Christ,” the project he was most proud of. One of the many highlights of his Hollywood career was the opportunity to consult on the 2018 film “Buttons: a Christmas Tale” with one of his childhood heroes, Dick Van Dyke. He was also a talented teacher, speaker, writer, actor and singer.

Rick graduated from South Kitsap High School (Port Orchard, WA) in 1986 and from Wheaton College (Wheaton, IL) in 1991. He also pursued writing studies at UCLA and theology and film studies at Multnomah University and Fuller Theological Seminary. He loved his family, Cannon Beach, Disneyland, comic books and musical theatre. And he was captivated by the miraculous, the mysterious, and the unusual, from the lives of saints to aliens to Sasquatch and the Loch Ness Monster.

Rick impacted lives

Rick impacted more lives than he realized. The words and tributes coming in from around the world are heartfelt and beautiful. His impact on all was significant and lasting.

People are irreplacable

He was a deep thinker who penned these words several months ago. “I think the sad thing about death I’m starting to realize in middle-age is that there’s no replacing those who pass on. Yes, circle of life. Yes, afterlife. Memories live on. Next generation up. All that. But the people and family you’ve come to love in your life–there is no one specifically and particularly like them–and when they’re gone, there is no one who CAN replace them. So you miss them. There’s an absence in your life, a void. Because they were unique. They were special. Good and bad. We all are. Guess that’s why we’d better spend as much time loving our people and ourselves NOW.”

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  • The Big Wait

Two Things To Do While Waiting

2021-03-01T21:02:51+00:00Devotionals, Just Me|

Waiting is a gift. At times it doesn’t feel like a gift. It feels like we are pinned down or behind a fence at the zoo. But as we wait, things are happening behind the scenes. They will be revealed in God’s time, in His manner, with His ultimate wisdom.

During this time of waiting, I have consciously chosen two thought processes to focus on that then affect my decisions and actions.

I choose to trust.

Yes, it is a choice. It isn’t always easy to trust, especially when we cannot see or touch God. But this is not the end of our life book. In spite of hardship, job changes, social distancing and the grieving of how life was, this is only a middle. In fact, in light of eternity, we are only in our introductions. Our stories are still being revealed and I trust God in not only writing mine, but managing it as well.

I choose to look for what He wants me to learn during this time.

How is He asking me to draw closer to Him? What opportunities is He giving me and what surprises does He have for me? One of these for me has been the gift of more time-time to read His words and more time to pray. Another has been the opportunity to mentor several ladies through some tough times in their lives and another who is a new believer and wants to grow. Thirdly, because our churches are virtual, there are wonderful opportunities to immerse myself in more messages pointing me to Christ. Any time of day or night. These messages have been a huge encouragement and draw me closer to my Savior.

We have our Lord’s assurance that He will never leave or forsake us. I believe that during this time of waiting, He wants us to draw closer, to depend on Him more and to make that daily (sometimes hourly) choice to trust Him.

I can’t wait to hear what He is teaching you.

But they who wait for the Lord shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings like eagles; run and not be weary; they shall walk and not faint. Isaiah 40:31 

The Lord is good to those who wait for him, to the soul who seeks him. Lamentations 3:25

  • power of community

Community Power

2024-09-09T16:55:06+00:00Devotionals, Just Me|

When I was a child, power outages were just plain fun. It meant popcorn on the wood stove, fishing for flashlights, scrounging for supplies and scaring each other by popping out from behind a door. It meant heading to the bathroom in the pitch dark-and then remembering that a source of light would be needed.

I was unafraid and taken care of. The rotary phone usually still worked. Literally, my brothers and I would cheer when the lights when out-even the time it went out mid-Thanksgiving Day one year. Our turkey was done. I learned later that others were not as fortunate. Many barbeques were fired up in Port Orchard that year.

Power Outage Stress

As an adult, power outages meant stress. With babies who would not drink cold milk, days off from school, hours without the distraction of electronics, limited light hours to play board games or read books and a sick husband, I came to my wit’s end a few times. My dad brought us firewood a few times. My mom sent food and ice for our cooler.

Once, the power was out for six days when we lived in Seaside (no wood stove or fireplace and the folks were several States away). Our city made the national news, supplies could not be brought in due to downed trees (we were largely out of food and water at the stores) and our cell phones worked only in one tip of the county near the beach. While trying to conserve gas, people drove to The Cove every other day or so to give out-of-area families an update.

I Dreaded The Night

It was cold. I dreaded the dark each night and was pretty sure insanity was knocking at my door. Every moment was from hundreds of years ago-I was either trying to sanitize the dishes from the last meal in some way or trying to figure out how to cook the next meal. This took HOURS each day. And although we had a little camp cooker, propane in the area quickly sold out. We tried to check on the older neighbors but more often, the knock was on our door. At one point, we had two meals of fresh sturgeon as the neighbors cleared out their deep freezer.

I was the adult. I was responsible. Power outages were no longer fun.

These days, power outages are slightly more fun. The kids are grown and fairly responsible, and my now-hubby  takes good care of us. The pressure is greatly reduced.

Our Community Power

But where would I have been without community?

The more I read and get to know God, the more I realize that we were never meant to do life alone. He placed us here in a planned community-to support and love each other. To uphold each other when things get tough. To show love to our neighbors and show light when a house is in darkness.

Going uphill is so much easier when others are there to help push and provide some of what you need along the way. 1 Thessalonians 5:11 says “Therefore encourage one another and build each other up, just as in fact you are doing.”

There have been times when I have isolated myself from community. When I have barricaded myself in. When I have been stubborn and insisted that I can do it on my own. Sometimes, I pull into myself. I put up a wall or shell and pretend I am both independent and untouchable.

But none of that is true.

I am nothing without you. And, admit it or not, you need me too. WE are community. We are community power. If no one is reaching out to you, please reach out to them.

They are waiting for you.

Hebrews 10:24–25

And let us consider how to stir up one another to love and good works, not neglecting to meet together, as is the habit of some, but encouraging one another, and all the more as you see the Day drawing near.

  • Julie with “Calculated Conversations” hosts, David Jefferson and Kan Smith

Mixin’ It With KBOO

2021-03-01T21:16:39+00:00Appearances|

I visited KBOO radio in Portland last night to be a guest on Calculated Conversations. What a fun time! Hosts David Jefferson and Kan Jones had heard about ARMS from one of my co-workers. David attended the banquet in October. Because they like to talk about deep subjects on their show, David brought up the banquet and how eye-opening it was to hear about abuse in our communities.

Fast forward to last night. I’ve never been on the radio before but it was a good experience. I, of course, took hubby for both moral support and driving as I drive too much as it is. Plus, he is super good at parallel parking in tight spaces in the city. About that time I’m wishing for a Smart or European car, he’s already in the space.

Julie being nervousKan met with us ahead of time and we made good conversation about traffic, the show and extreme growth in Portland. And he told us about his day job for a construction company.

Both David and Kan are not only great hosts but I was impressed with their hearts and their desire to educate on the topics that we all should be talking about. They were obviously very touched as we chatted and also after we received a call in from a lady who was just out of a traumatic and abusive experience.

Thank you David and Kan, for making my first radio experience a great one!

You can listen or download the broadcast here.

Six Things To Do About Anxiety

2021-03-01T21:27:11+00:00How To|

Last week, one of our Pastors preached on anxiety during the holiday season and I learned a few things. As you know, many of us struggle with anxiety. In fact, it is the number one disorder affecting 40 million adults in the United States (or so they say…ever wonder how they come up with that?). We also know that young people who use a ton more screen-time, have increased social isolation and experience trauma within families have a much higher rate of anxiety in their lives than ever before.

No fear

No Fear In Love

 “There is no fear in love. But perfect love drives out fear because fear has to do with punishment. The one who fears is not made perfect in love.” I John 4:18

This verse is not new to me and likely not new to you if you have struggled with anxiety. What have I learned from it over the years?

  • I learned that fear is NOT from God, it is from Satan. This helps me to pray it away and claim Jesus’ name when I am feeling it.
  • In addition, I learned that fear and love cannot coincide. I’m still working on this one.

Some of what he said made me muse:

“Fear has to do with punishment”. I’ve not delved into that phrase very much. The Pastor brought it up as related to a past event. In other words, at some point, we experienced punishment because there was a consequence associated with a happening, event, attitude, or action. I appreciate this viewpoint. It is part of being trauma-informed. I understand that trauma re-wires the brain and affects our future actions until we receive healing and work on rewiring the connections to have more healthy responses.

In his own life, our pastor has learned to ride the anxiety out, instead of frantically trying to find a way to deal with it. As it comes, he reflects instead of being fearful, as anxiety always has an ending point. In addition, because “perfect love casts out fear”, he is able to ask himself:

“Who or what is more important to me at this moment than the love of God?”

I guess this goes back to the part of the verse that says fear and love cannot coexist. You know, the part I’m working on.

Do Not Be Worried About Your Life

I realize that speaking point two points right back at me. I’m okay with that. God says worry is wrong. In Matthew 6:25, Jesus said, “For this reason I say to you, do not be worried about your life..”. However, we have to pay mind to outside influences. Some of us have trauma in our past or our present. Many people struggle with grief, especially around the holidays.

There are legitimate reasons why people struggle with anxiety.

Billy Graham says: “If we trust in our worry more than we trust God we are sinning by our lack of faith in God, who has given us the richness of His constant abiding presence, for those who put their faith in Him. Counter your worry by thinking about the things you do not worry about.”

By allowing anxiety, am I trusting my worry more than God?

Anxiety Rules

I am making myself some anxiety rules. Won’t you join me?

  1. I accept that I have some anxiety/stress in my life.
  2. I acknowledge that God doesn’t want me to be anxious, afraid or stressed.
  3. I continue to work on healing and because self-care has been wayward as of late, I will get back to making myself a priority.
  4. When anxious, I will remind myself it does not last forever. I will remind myself of God’s presence and his intense love for me. I will remind myself that EVERYTHING is in His hands and that I choose to trust Him. I will say this aloud if needed to redirect my brain.
  5. I will go to Him in prayer. He might be waiting for me to do so more when I am anxious than at any other time.
  6. I will look for a way to serve someone else in that moment. This could be writing an email of encouragement to someone, sending a card or picture, calling someone who needs me, making a meal for my family, walking my dog, etc. Anxiety is self-absorbing, even though we do not mean it to be. Serving another (even the dog) takes my focus off of me.
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